How Did I Get Here?

by Paul Barton

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about

Every time I record an album it feels like the album is exactly what I was supposed to make. Every time, it feels like all my other musical projects have led up to this moment. This feeling is especially strong for this album. All my previous albums have given me the skills to write and record this album, which feels like I'm finally and truly being myself (even though I suspect I might feel the same way next time I record an album). With "How Did I Get Here?" I believe I've found a new level of honesty and humility in my songwriting. I'm writing from my own experience in a way that seems to connect with others. Some of these songs have made people cry when I play them live, and that's one of the highest compliments I can receive. I could not have written these songs without all of the people who have inspired my personal growth in the past few years.

credits

released March 16, 2019

All instruments and vocals performed by Paul Barton
Recorded and mixed by Paul in his bedroom
Thanks to Mara Nesrallah and Tom Upjohn for the help in finishing the mixes
Album art by Alina Kouvchinova

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Track Name: And I Love You
Look at where you are
Look at where you are, where you are
You are here, you are here
You are here, thank you
And I love you
And I love you

Look at where we are
Look at where we are
We are here, we are here
We are here, thank you
And I love you
And I love you
Track Name: Courage
Do you remember that day last year,
when in spite of fear, you did it anyway?
Do you remember how it felt
before and after you chose to be brave?

You didn't need anything else
You were alive and you knew why
What are you afraid of now?

Take your fear, and feel it all
But don't let it hold you back
I know it's hard, you know it's right
Choose who you want to be this time

The consequences you can't predict
and all the excuses that get in your way
No one will stop you, they'll cheer you on
as you become who you're meant to be

And you won't need anything else
You'll be alive and you'll know why
What are you afraid of now?

Take your fear, and feel it all
But don't let it hold you back
I know it's hard, you know it's right
Choose who you want to be this time
Track Name: How Did I Get Here?
I've just been born
took my first breath
Seems I've got a life to live
How did I get here?

I'm a young boy
I've learned to ride a bike
These tree branches hold me up
How did I get here?

And the truth is, I don't know
And it's more true that I'm grateful
What are the chances that I'd be here, right now, in this?
Seems lucky to me

I've joined a band
We're playing downtown
The guys at the bar look really tough
How did I get here?

I've just moved out
To the city
All things here are scary and new
How did I get here?

And the truth is, I don't know
And it's more true that I'm grateful
What are the chances that I'd be here, right now, in this?
Seems lucky to me

I'm on your roof
Sitting beside you
I think there's nowhere I'd rather be
How did I get here?

And the truth is, I don't know
And it's more true that I'm grateful
What are the chances that I'd be here, right now, in this?
Seems lucky to me
Track Name: You Are Enough
Maybe you walk, maybe you fall
But you were a baby once and you got right back up
Maybe you sing, maybe you're silent
But silence and song are both beautiful sounds

And you might not think much of yourself
And it might be hard to talk about mental health
And sometimes it's hard to see

You are enough, you are just right
You see your faults but can you see your light?
Put down your worry, just for today
Tomorrow will come and you will find your way

When things are light, when things are dark
You travel through it all, you've come so far
And what about here? This moment right now?
You bring value to the world, we'll need you somehow

And you might not think much of yourself
And it might be hard to talk about mental health
And sometimes it's hard to see

You are enough, you are just right
You see your faults but can you see your light?
Put down your worry, just for today
Tomorrow will come and you will find your way
You are enough, you are just right
You see your faults but can you see your light?
Put down your worry, just for today
Tomorrow will come and you will find your way
Track Name: No Tears
I remember those days long ago
Crying was a part of the daily flow
There were sticks and stones and bones
and words that we all know
The innocent lives of lucky children ready to grow

And then the girls, they played separate from the boys
The boys, they ran and jumped with rough and tumble joy
But if you cried you soon became the bully's toy
Between your tears and your peers you had to make a choice

So there were ten years
With no tears
There were ten years
With no tears

They say a real man, he knows how to cry
They say that tears release the tension in your life
But trust me it's harder than it seems, do you know why?
Once you kill that part of yourself it doesn't just come back alive

'cause there were ten years
With no tears
There were ten years
With no tears

And what I want you to know
If this sounds like you
That part of you is not dead
He's just afraid of you
So give him the courage
Tell him it's ok
Tell him every day
Until he shows his face

And it might take years
It might take years
But you'll see those tears
I saw those tears
Track Name: Can I Rest
Can I rest?
Lay my head next to yours?
The day is done
I can't do any more

My hands are dirty
My hair is grey
My back is broken
Or so my muscles say
And I might be bleeding
Just a little bit
But don't you worry
I'm used to it

Can I rest?
Lay my head next to yours?
The day is done
I can't do any more

I'll tear your house down
I'll build it back up
I know what I'm doing
I'm all grown up
And though I'm tired
At the end of the day
I would not have it
Any other way

Can I rest?
Lay my head next to yours?
The day is done
I can't do any more
Track Name: How Do I Believe You?
How do I believe you?
How do I let go of simplicity
And all I once knew to be true
How do I believe you?
You showed me some magic
With no sleight of hand
I can't imagine
A World where that can happen

You know, you know, you know, you know
I don't mean to bring you sorrow
Let me struggle, give me time
It takes long to change my mind

For now, I'll play the part
Acting like I know
But this paradox won't leave me
I believe you and I don't
In my cocoon
Thinking of the forest
In my head
Thinking of spirit

You know, you know, you know, you know
I don't mean to bring you sorrow
Let me struggle, give me time
It takes long to change my mind
Let me struggle, give me time
It takes long to change my mind
Track Name: Take Your Time
So, are you gonna stay?
If you go, I'll be right here
In this beginning place
If you stay I'll walk with you till the end of time

I don't know how I know
So it's ok if you don't
So steady as we go
We'll walk into the unknown in our own time

Take your time, take my time
Take it all, I would love you to
It's ok, it's alright
I can wait, and I'll wait for you

They ask us what we are
Now we're not this we're not that
And I'll say I don't mind
I don't care much for categories anyway

What's that look on your face?
Don't you know I am scared too?
In this beginning place
Wondering if you'll walk with me till the end of time

Take your time, take my time
Take it all, I would love you to
It's ok, it's alright
I can wait, and I'll wait for you
Take your time, take my time
Take it all, I would love you to
It's ok, it's alright
I can wait, and I'll wait for you
Track Name: You Don't Fall
You don't fall
You don't fall
Maybe you
Don't climb high enough

No, you
No, you
Don't climb at all
No, you
No, you
Don't climb at all

Where are you going?

No, you
No, you
Don't climb at all
No, you
No, you
Don't climb at all
So you don't fall

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